We may not understand the heart of God unto us until He expresses His dismay when we forsake Him. Most times, we are more hurt by the unfaithful actions of those who we hold dear to our hearts than mere acquaintances. Until we perceive the pain in God’s heart, we may not know the extent of the love He has for us.
“Go and shout this in Jerusalem’s streets: The Lord says, ‘I remember how eager you were to please me as a young bride long ago, how you loved me and followed me even through the barren deserts. In those days Israel was a holy people, the first of my children. All who harmed them were counted deeply guilty, and great evil fell on anyone who touched them.’ “O Israel,” says the Lord, “why did your fathers desert me? What sin did they find in me that turned them away and changed them into fools who worship idols? They ignore the fact that it was I, the Lord, who brought them safely out of Egypt and led them through the barren wilderness, a land of deserts and rocks, of drought and death, where no one lives or even travels. And I brought them into a fruitful land, to eat of its bounty and goodness, but they made it into a land of sin and corruption and turned my inheritance into an evil thing. Even their priests cared nothing for the Lord, and their judges ignored me; their rulers turned against me, and their prophets worshiped Baal and wasted their time on nonsense. “But I will not give you up-I will plead for you to return to me and will keep on pleading; yes, even with your children’s children in the years to come! “Look around you and see if you can find another nation anywhere that has traded in its old gods for new ones-even though their gods are nothing. Send to the west to the island of Cyprus; send to the east to the deserts of Kedar. See if anyone there has ever heard so strange a thing as this. And yet my people have given up their glorious God for silly idols! The heavens are shocked at such a thing and shrink back in horror and dismay. For my people have done two evil things: They have forsaken me, the Fountain of Life-giving Water; and they have built for themselves broken cisterns that can’t hold water! Jer 2:2-13
O Lord, I look out and realize the depths of Your affection. You hold me in Your arms and are continually thinking about me. Of what benefits have my wanderings been to me? I have always wanted to have my way; to make my own decisions and live my own life. What have I gained? Of what use have my strong-headedness been to me? I now repent and come to you with a heart full of brokenness and eyes filled with tears. Have me unto yourself, and I will delight in you.